16 years ago an angel was sent to me; there was no umbilical cords to cut, there was no time to prepare, I was barely 23..totally unprepared to be a mother.
I held you and looked into your eyes, that was the moment the heavens opened and the worlds best love song was played; I heard it in my heart and I know you did too. From that moment I knew you were my daughter and I was meant to be your mother..I did not know anything about long sleepless nights, changing of diapers, I knew nothing about sharing my life with a little person. While all my friends were out at the parties and bars…I was home changing diapers and singing lullabies. You saved me from all the stupid young mistakes I could have made…For this I am thankful. You spoke at 10 months and have not shut up since..you walked shortly after and every little footstep was imprinted in my heart. You dragged your little suit case around in Huge airports..LAX was almost home for everyone knew you by name as you stole peoples heart everywhere you went. I was always proud of you and you looked to me for all your questions .
Your teen years have been challenging, You started not thinking much of me..mommy became old fashioned and not too cool enough for your friends . For what do I know , when you have all the answers…I know its a phase, one that hurts every mother so so very much.
I want you to know, that I correct you because I want to teach you, I scold you so you can learn wrong from right, i ground you to keep you from making mistakes that can hurt you… Yes I have been over protective, that is just because I want you to know how much you are worth.
Today you are sixteen…and I want you to know that mommy will always wait up for you when you are out. Mommy will always be on the front row to cheer you on, I will be the shoulder you need to lean on , I will be there to whip away your tears… As you move from being a child to a young lady , I must trust in the morals I have thought you, in the guidance you have gotten from Grandma and grandpa, uncle Aaron Elijah Juan, auntie Ninfa Juan Mendoza, Auntie Marien Dela Rosa. I must trust in your judgement of friends , which you have proven to be great as you have managed to keep one best friend in over 12 years in Jasmin Ford, whom I have grown to love as a child of my own.
You will be soon having a boyfriend and I pray that God will guide you and keep you safe from harm..you will get many a broken heart, and I will be there for you when you need an embrace or a listening ear as I know Jasmin will be too.
You are so very special my love , you will be a great doctor someday soon…Do not let anything or anyone tell you different. You are a child of the living God, you are great and divine you are a miracle and I am honored he entrusted your care to me.. No matter what struggles you go through in life , no matter what mistakes you make , we will correct them and overcome them together , like I promised God it would be.
Happy Birthday my sweet angel